Hey i want to talk about something and its not something you guys would think to be talked about on this website. I mean this is an art website not a news website. But when you write or make anything thats art you have feelings about it. So im gonna express my feelings about this news report i heard whether you guys like it or not because art is based on feelings & these are my feelings.
Anyway on the news theres this HORRIFIC AND HORRIBLE story that happened and it affected me into writing about it, you guys probably think "how did it affect you its got nothing to do with you" well i will tell you how it affected me later if you guys dont understand when im done ok. Anyway im not sure if you guys have heard the story yet but im about to tell you so go heat up some popcorn and get ready to read something thats SO HORRIBLE AND SAD. Oh and grab a box of tissues because you might need them.
On the news there was this story about a pregnant woman. By the way she was close to her due date and the baby was formed already. Anyway oneday she was putting up adds about her selling some puppies on the internet. Sometime around she gets all call from a lady that 'claims' she wants to buy the pregnant womans puppies. So they talk on the internet, the lady says[not the pregnant one] that at a certain time in the day[It didnt say what time on the news] she will go pick up the puppies at the pregnant womans house but the thing was that the pregnant woman had a doctors appoinment around that time for her baby. So the pregnant woman says to the lady " Im sorry thats not a good time i have a doctors appoinment to get altrosound" Then the lady said 'oh your pregnant thats cool im pregnant too, so whens your due date'. Then the pregnant woman says " Oh sometime in july" because the pregnant woman didnt think it was harm to tell her. Anyway the day comes when the lady is coming to the pregnant womans house to 'buy' the puppies. So the pregnant woman opens her front door to let the lady in her house because she thinking todays the day someones buying he puppies. But like 2 seconds after the lady comes in the pregnant womans house, a couple of the ladys friends burst through the pregnant womans door and ran inside and held the pregnant woman down so she couldnt escape and that lady that said she was going to buy her puppies was lying to the pregnant woman the whole time. So that lady got out a knife and cut the baby out of the pregnant womans stomache and killed the pregnant woman, then they kidnapped the alive baby. Yes it was alive and formed complety. Well what the cruel lady planned to do was after killing the mother was kidnap the baby and SELL IT TO GET MONEY LIKE IF THE CRYING BABY WAS A FREAKING DOG. Luckly that CRUEL, HORRIBLE lady got caught and the baby was saved from getting sold. HOW SICK AND HORRIBLE RIGHT.
Anyway some people may think that since the babys ok and the lady was caught by the police everythings gonna be ok. If anyone who read this and thought that it would be okay since the babys safe and the lady was caught, then those people are terribly WRONG. First how many people actually thought the babys gonna be ok because she was saved by the police. Theres a reason everythings not going to be ok. The reason is as simple as 1+0. The reason is because the baby is NOT going to be ok. I mean sure the babys going to be ok PHYSICALLY but what about Emotionly and mentally. Emotionly and mentally thats WHERE the baby is NOT going to be okay guys. Ok how many of you guys are in fostercare or adopted or dont know who your mother is, thats reading this. Now im not asking you to tell me if you are one of those kids or not but if you are one of those kids that im talking about thats reading this then you should automatically know what this child, is going to have to go through and you should know how hard and how much its going to hurt this child to overcome and understand what happend, but MOST importantly you should know how INCREDIBALY HARD its going to be for him/her to get over it and move on with his/her life.
Now if you guys remember in the biggining I said I would tell you why this story effected me into writing this because like you guys probably think "I dont have anything to do with this". Well now im going to tell you guys why the story effected me so much!!
Okay guys its not really about "how this has nothing to do with me" because you guys i KINDA of right. It doesnt have anything to do with me. But you see thats not what im talking about. Look the reason why the story kinda effected me, its not because i know the people because i dont know a single thing about them. Its more because i know the expierence the childs going to have to go through or more importantly the expirence im still going through. Thats right im in fostercare ive been since i was only 3 years old. So the reason why the story effected me is because i feel TRUE,REAL and PURE SIMPATHY towards that child. Its just after what happened to me and whats stiill happening to me. Im NOT going into details so dont bother asking. It just hurts, you know to not see my family and its just hurts so much. Sometimes it hurts so much that i question myself if IM A NORMAL PERSON OR NOT because i dont have a NORMAL relationship with my mom and dad like most kids do. A long time ago i used to question myself IF IM EVEN WORTH LIVING. I dont question myself on that anymore and the only reason why i dont is because i REALIZED LIFE ISNT ALWAYS EASY AND I REALIZED LIFE ISNT GOING TO GIVE YOU A PERFECT LIFE I REALIZED THAT EVERYONE HAS A LIFE, BUT ITS YOUR JOB TO MAKE THE CHOICES YOU WANT IN YOUR LIFE. ITS THAT YOUR JOB IS TO FIGURE OUT HOW YOU WANT TO MAKE WITH YOUR LIFE. I REALIZED YOU ONLY HAVE ONE LIFE TO LIVE AND HOW YOU CHOOSE TO LIVE IT THATS YOUR CHOICE. So yeah in the beggining i had a sad and suckish life but I REALIZED I CHOSE TO PITY MYSELF AND CRY OVER IT INSTEAD OF TRYING TO GET UP AND SHOOT FOR THE STARS. Okay yeah when i got tooken away from my mom that WASNT MY CHOICE AND THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD HAVE DOWN TO STOP IT. But i REALIZED THAT SCENE THAT I WAS PRESENT IN DIDNT LAST FOR THREE YEARS. That scene lasted for TEN MIN AT THE MOST. So when i turned i think 12 i stopped feeling sorry for myself and I ACTUALLY LIVED A LIFE. I REALIZED I DIDNT WANT TO WASTE MY LIFE FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF JUST BECAUSE MY MOM DIDNT ACT LIKE A MOM. AND THOSE LAST WORDS WERE WHAT HELPED ME OVERCOME MY SADNESS AND THOSE WORDS WERE WHAT HELPED ME TO FINNALY RECOVER IN FULL LENGTH. Incase you guys didnt catch what i meant by "THE LAST WORDS". I meant this listen. I finally said something in my mind one day and what i said was "I REALIZED I DIDNT WANT TO WASTE MY LIFE FEELING SORRY FOR MYSELF JUST BECAUSE MY MOM DIDNT ACT LIKE A MOM. Thats right i realized why would i even want to live with someone that didnt protect me the way a mother should. I REALIZED WHAT THE TRUE DEFFIONITION OF MOM AND DAD IS. IT TOOK ME A LONG TIME TO REALIZE IT BUT WHAT THE WORDS MOM & DAD REALLY IS ONLY DNA. The reason why DNA is what mom & dad means is because i REALIZED SURE A MOTHER CAN GIVE BIRTH TO HER CHILD BUT THE ONLY REASON WHY ITS HER CHILD IS BECAUSE IT HAS THE SAME DNA AS THE MOM. THATS ALL. Thats right all the LOVING, CARING, PROTECTING the CHILD is ONLY and i mean ONLY A CHERRY ON TOP OF THE BANANNASPLIT. So if your in fostercare and you read this i hoped it helped with some confusion.
Anyway so the REAL REASON why that story effected me is BECUASE I DONT WANT OR LIKE TO SEE KIDS GO THROUGH WHAT IM GOING THROUGH AND WHAT SOME OTHERE ARE GOING THROUGH. The reason why is because i DONT LIKE OR WANT TO SEE INNOCENT KIDS GO THROUGH THIS BECAUSE I KNOW HOW MUCH IT HURTS AND HOW HARD IT IS TO BE IN FOSTERCARE. BUT I AM A CHRISTIAN AND I ALWAYS WILL BE, BUT AS A CHRISTIAN I BELIEVE THAT GOD HAS A REASON FOR EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS. THATS HOW IM STAYING SO STRONG BECAUSE I BELIEVE WHATS HAPPEND AND IS HAPPENING RIGHT NOW IS ALL FOR A REASON BY GOD AND HOPEFULLY I WILL SOON FIND OUT BUT INTILL THEN I KEEP BEING FAITHUL AND GOD ALWAYS HELPS ME STAND STRONG AND FACE IT ALL. SO AS A CHRISTIAN I BELIEVE WHAT HAPPENED IN THIS NEWS REPORT WILL ONEDAY BE FOR A GOOD REASON BY GOD. Even though i dont know the child i will pray for him/her because god will always know who im talking about. IM SORRY I RANTED GUYS. I KNOW THIS JOURNAL ENTRY IS LONG BUT I BELIVE IT WAS FOR A GOOD CAUSE AND NEEDED TO BE SPOKE ABOUT. BYE PEACEOUT AND GOODNIGHT.